I know losing a child is a nightmare and the feeling is suffocating, soul breaking, heart shattering and devastating and I wish there is a word that can describe it but there isn’t! But I know how you feel! I have been through this pain and I know that your heart is broken. But my dear strong mama! You are braver than you think and stronger than you imagine. You should know this that its okay to grieve and feel heartbroken. You haven’t lost your child.. You have lost your heartbeat.